This is it

this is how I'm going to die

There was this one time when I'd just gotten out of the shower, and the x was mad about something

He grabbed my towel
threw me to the ground on my stomach
put his knee in the middle of my back to hold me down
rolled up the towel
placed the towel around my neck
pulled up
my head was forced back

In that span of time, I thought 'this is it', 'I'm done'
I was relieved it was almost over
I was going to be at peace
The x released as I started to go black

I was disappointed to still be alive

He didn't want to go to jail over me